最近的心情..- Two word to describe.. Fuck Up..

(I am not emo, I am juz naturally silence)
Tiz is a quite bad week for me...
My lovely hsmate had gone for their holiday and make me less of fun..
Tht day went out for movie wit a good mood..
Then, sumone is emoing..
I feeling so fuking no mood wit it..
If u are feeling emo, plz la u might stay at home n emo urself..
I had tried my jokes and making myself so stupid and u still being emo..
The most important thg is..
I rily felt tht emo is a disease..
It influenced me..
Haiz.. Thts end my good day which i wan enjoy being in world of Narnia..


The day after the movie, i saw a notes on FB..
It's about Alviss Kong..
I rily felt so sad for him..
And the news is still keep on posting by others...
Everytime i saw i will clik n see it all over again..
Then i will feel very down..
He is juz an unknown for me, for the first time i saw his notes..
I almost cried..(as i duno it is real onot)
When i saw news about him.. i rily cried..
I rily touched by him...
Although i quite disagree wit commit suicide..
I hope my fren who dislike he commit sucide juz keep it in ur heart and dun scold...
I felt very angry wheneva i saw ppl scolding him..
First, i think we rily should respect him as he oredi dead..
Second, although committing suicide is a not rily proper way to solve everythg..
Howeva i felt tht he is rily brave..
Did u all brave enuf to commit suicide?
If u all din.. den plz Shut ur Fuck Up..
i know it is a selffish n stupid way on commit suicide..
but i know tht i rily nid a lot of courage to do it..
If he rily din being hurted so seriously.. he wont be able to do it..
I wish tht frens around me wont having the same concept wit him
where he said "it is not devil bin fault... it is my decision, as thr is only love in my world"
Haiz.. tiz is another case tht make me feel down...


The last thg i wanna talk about is first impression...
After being half year in MMU, i felt i cant make fren wit ppl by the first impression he giv me anymore...
B4 tiz... whoeva giving me bad first impression i wont diu him..
and whoeva giving me good impression i will go n make frenz wit him..
howeva.. all these thg is rily fuck up..
Sum ppl juz like to being fake..
As time passes, they revealed their real face..
B4 tiz a guy who smoke n nvr think b4 he talk...
i rily dislike him..
but now i feel tht it is nth..
rily nth...
Better than sum ppl who hide up his tail..
I duno he sensitive enuf to feel tht thr are ppl dislike him other than me onot..
but if u dont now i tell u..
if u saw my blog i know u know tht guy is u...
A ppl who gav me good impression no matter he make me feel embarrassing in front of others i oso wont mind about it..
A ppl who gav me bad impression, even if he praise me..
i oso felt tht he is so fucking fake..
Now, i wont depend on the first impression ppl gav..
but the impression he gav me after we are fren..
Nth to said oredi...
juz feeling so fuck up..

Hope u Can Feel Tht I Dislike Eu~

如果你在3年前认识我, 你这种pattern只有两种下场...
1. 你会被我玩到惨..
2. 我不会去吊你,管你要死还是怎样..
不懂这是你的幸运还是我的不幸..
你最好祈祷我不会回到过去..
不管怎样...目前我还是忍得下去..
不过我知道过度压抑很不好..
因为通常我一爆发... 一定是疯狂...
虽然你不可能会看我的部落格,不过,
我还是衷心地为你祈祷..

哇!忙啊~紧张啊~

好累啊~
最近都好忙哦...
在忙些什么呢?
一个很恶心的戏剧~
midterm考试又来临~
还有一大堆的assignment及quiz...
英文还有一个1000个字的缩写要做...
MUET也差不多来了(不过也没什么可以准备呱~)
哎呀,看起来真的是应该很忙的...
可是我却好像还是蛮悠闲的感觉...(内心却十分不安啊)
算了吧...
明天表演完戏剧就好好准备midterm吧...(应该说今天bcoz now is 2.20am)
最近最开心的应该是我已经厌倦了我的网上游戏(maple)...
所以我多出了许多的时间去上网聊天及在部落格上写下心情...
(就是还没温习)
哈哈...
不过算了,最近心情的确是有好转...
希望这次的midterm可以考好,就不需要像上sem那样...
过了final,出成绩的期间一直提心吊胆的...
可是期望还只是期望...
感觉还是没什么决心去改变...
>"<
夜已深,我亦累了...
这次就这么多吧^.^

再次回到部落格

那么久没在部落格上分享心情了...
回首往事~
以前确实是有点幼稚及冲动...
已经一年 了,
我也上了大学~
怎么说呢?
第一个SEM就感觉~
就是很喜欢大学的生活,
很开心能上大学之后才工作...
可是看来生活虽然开心可是还是会有烦恼...
开始觉得好像应该努力了...
别缺席,别懒惰~
可是最近做什么都觉得力不从心的感觉...
连看个综艺节目...
很好笑,我也笑了...
可是还是没有一种开心的感觉...
不过还好,还可以跟朋友及HSMATE们一起打发时间...
希望心情能慢慢好转吧!
因为现在竟然连打GAME的心情也没了~
^.^不过最近听回刘明湘在超级星光大道唱的"I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT"
虽然歌曲伤感可是我却能让我的心情舒畅...
也想不到还可以写些什么了...
这次就这样吧!
希望以前一起写部落格的朋友也可以继续分享你们近来的生活与心情~

自尊

今天做了件开心的好事...
帮人家融化了两人之间的冰山...
懂得帮人自己却做不到...
是自尊心作祟吗??
应该吧...
从小的事大多都记忆模糊...
只对丢脸的事情记忆犹新...
常常发呆还会不禁回忆起来...
更悔恨自己的所做所为...
还会不禁打起自己的头...
他...当众让我丢脸...
而且是不能以笑置之的那种...
想起就非常地气!!
一度想要原谅他...
但又被他的行为放弃了这个念头...
现在的他好像玩具似地被人玩弄是我导致的吗?
还是以前就这样了只是我没注意到...
一度地可怜他...
但又被想报复的心情盖过去了...
自尊真的重要吗??
可是一个人没有自尊又算是什么??
是应该把握最后一年的机会...
还是等待时间逝去等到不会再跟他有交际的日子?

朋友们给我出点意见吧...

共同的话题

考试周...
做什么事总觉得没心情...
烦恼啊!
消失吧...
发现我跟他好像没什么聊天了...
短讯也没传...
发生了什么吗?
吵架了吗?
什么都没有啊...
只是单纯地觉得距离越来越远...
彼此之间没有共同的话题...
想跟你聊天也不懂该说什么...
就这样不见了吗?
以前的友好...
纳闷啊...
不懂该做些什么...
还是让它顺其自然比较好吧...

人与人之间的关系

HALO...好久没写BLOG了咯...
最近啊...考完试脑中浮现了一些小时侯的记忆...
我从小到大的记忆相当模糊...
大概有的就是从小学开始的回忆吧...
可是在那之中我并找不到美好的回忆...
我有的是那个可笑的烧垃圾桶...
那个莫名其妙的在警局报案...
还是告.......
许许多多的家庭内不好的回忆我想忘都忘不了...
可是没关系...
现在的我还是可以好好地生活...
我不说也没人懂我曾经发生什么家庭问题...
不过最近有个好友很烦恼一些人与人之间的问题...
其实要解决问题我也不大会...
因为我自己的家人的关系都有点复杂啊...
其实我也很想帮我的好友的...
可是,怎样帮??
我真的不会...
我不敢擅自去解决...
因为解决得到当然好,要是情况更糟呢??
我觉得是不是因该勇敢说出自己心理的话给对方听呢?
可是这对我来说是最难做到的...
真诚,真心,坦白...
那有多难...
因为我自己也信错过人...
变得好多疑...
好难好难去认为我们说的他们真的不介意??
HAIZZZ... 谁又能给我些意见??
我也快透不过气了吧...